Aufrecht dem Übel Entgegen

Aufrecht dem Übel Entgegen

 Gott ist nunmehr tot

Gott ist aus und vorbei

Das Leben ist zwecklos

Es ist einfach einerlei

Gott ist nur ein übler Verräter

Gott ist ständig auf der Flucht

Und ich bin hier gestrandet

In einer tödlichen Bucht

Gott kann mir hier nichts mehr geben

Gott kann nichts mehr für mich sein

Zur Hölle mit dir und deinem Gott

Mit dem Teufel hier ganz allein

Gott ist ja nur ein kleines Kind

Willkürlich, wild und narrenfrei

Handelt ohne Sinn und Verstand

In Egoismus oder Selbstkastei

Ohne Bestimmung

Ohne waltendes Herz

Nur die Erquickung

Oder der Schmerz

Gott ist eben ein Tyrann

Gewaltsam und gemein

Lässt einen im Stich

Lässt einen allein

Gott ist widerlich

Im Zusammensein

Gott frisst fast alles

Ist ein Schwein

Gott ist verloren

Das Universum lebt

Ob man kriecht, liegt

Oder auch mal steht

Gott, er kann mich doch einmal

Er kann nichts ohne mich allein

Gott kann für mich eigentlich

Nie mehr das Gleiche sein

Gott ist keine sogenannte, diese Liebe

Nicht Jesus, nicht Mohamed, nicht viel

Ist nur allenfalls eine Verdummung

Ein himmlisch teuflisches Spiel

Gott kann mich so sehr kreuzweise

Im Kreuze dieser und jener Nacht

In der Dunkelheit jeden Tages

Im Machtspiel dieser Macht

Ich bin die Macht, bin so gut wie ja alles

Ich bin haufenweise aber auch nichts

Ich bin Gott, im Null, im Neutrum

Meines inneren Gleichgewichts

HC_B

Fish in the Sea

Fish in the Sea

Let me just tell you that I love you

Let me love you for at least some now

Let me live the thrill of anticipation

Some here, some there, somehow

Lead me gently to the certain place

Where I truly ever will be weakly strong

Through your cryptic ocean of benevolence

All absent, the provoking and wanted way along

You have kissed me slightly in my soul 

Ignited a lovely fire to gently exude still astray

Guide me but yet with your tenderness right apart

To what might not be or perchance even may

Let me honor you and let me enthrall you

Meanwhile, you consider other stars all that true

And I am in this visceral primal oh feeling of arousal

That’s sprung from somewhere and is linked to you

You disarm me and I’m melting away and back

In the memory of the warmth of your mellow smile

You have made happen to be a nagging eternity

A single, short, for you minuscule while

Life self-fulfills its own rum prophecy

Like a golden snail spreads down or ashore

Whilst unraveled yet remaining a prodigy

Either to hate or even rather adore

Let me sense, revel and relish the genius part

Of present resistance dwelling to be carried through

Pulsating in the substantial power of delay

Pulsating here waiting for you

Neither be afraid, my harmony

Nor anywise differently insecure

Liberty leads the right aspects

Now and forever be sure

HC_B - 06 /02 /15

[19:25 PM]    

Focus & Effort

Focus & Effort

Silence of ignorance

You’re doing me a mite wrong

You burden me with your weakness

Whereas I have to and used to be strong

I am longing for me to get a sleep

But my mind keeps me waking

My feelings are harmed

Hurt by mistaking

I’ve been brave, you know, I’ve been pretty fine

Enthusiastic, but noble-minded and quixotic

As good as in the minds of one's limitation

Chaotic even eke some neurotic

Fairly and squarely I’ve treated you

Straight-shooting honestly nigh unto now

But any old how you got the wrong end of the stick

Misinterpreted me frigging somewhen, why and somehow

I may have overloaded you occasionally in fact

But nothing but, because you’ve unexplainedly locked

There’s no such ground to end inside of human or any being

Whence behind such-and-such iron curtain angst-ridden you cocked

You put the saddle on the wrong horse as here so to say

For being little weak, little anxious and a little small

Opting for the flight to the elusive comfort zone

Being scared out of your skin and that’s all

What could the world have gained with the right handle of potency

With a licit personal forward-looking and massive hybridization

What could have been the richly gift of yet "Let's do it again"

NEW HUMAN BEING FOR A BETTER CIVILIZATION

I know my lessons I do have to learn, don't you?

I may have loved you, I'm very sorry, to some death

But unconditionally, I swear a, “I never meant to” oath

“Knocked up” without any more great hilarious breath

I’m not afraid of intimacy, without port now, ok, any more

Or rather and better really unconditioned, if there is love

Whether to loose nor to win, I’d rather be such an idiot

Than a pigeon without an unfailing sky up above

There’s more solid sensation to give in this inscrutability of existence

Than no better as such a romantic sense datum without a datum

Responsibility bounds care to everyone by hook or by crook

A tiny piece of anything makes a universe and an atom

Life doesn’t impose square for us spin all around

No, life is round 'n' we square it all the closer

GOD is not a fine figure of a planner

GOD is a bloody COMPOSER

HC_B - 11/02/15

[0:13 am/ 12:58 pm]

Ghost Town Blues

Ghost Town Blues

I feel horrible, I feel exhausted

I feel my heart is in such great pain

I feel no headway in all this motion

I feel perverse, peculiar and insane

My heart quite nearly explodes

Alarming, confusing and depressing

Don't know what for or where or when

But I still go further on blind guessing

No help, no being

No, no another side

Extremely nothing

Wider and wide

Hardly know if I should move

Should I beware or should I care

If I'm not here, I'm surely not there

Not at all existing, here or anywhere

I'm a messed up one

How weird, what a pity

I'm an alien of this life

A ghost in a left city

My face is burning

Touching atmosphere

Oh, could you be with me

Oh, could you be here

HC_B - 18/08/04

[3:30 PM]

O Tempo

O Tempo

O tempo

Corre

Com o vento

As vezes em frente

As vezes atras

As vezes dentro

As vezes surpreende tempestade

Salva vida

Salva verdade

O tempo

Para

Na locura

Fora do mundo

Perto da lua

No outro espaço

Na sua doçura

HC_B - 16/11/97

[10:00 AM]

No Night before Dawn

No Night before Dawn

Can you see me

This little homely me

Poor and lonesome

As one can be

A firestorm

Around my neck

The desert's calling

For one more wreck

Empty rooms

In empty spaces

Fading memories

Trite fading faces

Empty hearts

Desires and love

Empty blue skies

There high above

Don't want to die

Beyond a real smile

 No, don't want to cry

Walking that mile

God give me happiness

To cover my weary bones

God give me some peace

After too many homes

Let me gladly wake up

With the sun on my face

Blood in all my heart

Power and grace

Open that door

I'm quite longing for

And long before daylight

Ain't be no night there anymore

HC_B - 19/11/08

[10:45 PM]

Facing Liberty

Facing Liberty

Sitting in a backyard

Sun is leaving and coming

Would like to stay now 'n' here

But I can not stop running

It's a kind of obsession

It's a kind of heaven 'n' hell

A case of being some crazy

And of knowing me well

Devil is doing good work

Devil is cheating right on me

God can't help it, I can help it

Hell, thank God, I'm free

I'm facing obscure dark

Straight to the rotten why

Remembering good life

My Goodness, WHY

Damned missing of COULD BE

Damned thinking of SHOULD BE

Cannot bear to fail once ever again

I miss ME here, I miss my MAN

I need to respect HIM

I'm longing for salvation

I'm a bad doing farmer

For my own creation

Being this all so confused

That desert drowning sucks

Love is not simply a game

It's dealing with locks

Can't afford those  risks

Any further, any more

Devil has got me

God, it's war

HC_B - 28/08/01

[4:00 PM]

Rarely True

Rarely True

I feel so young

I feel daunting small

I feel a thousand doubts

THAT'S ALL

That's what it feels like

SO VERY FAR FROM YOU

That's what it feels like

IN, not through

Wondering above

Like a crying dove

LONELY too, so

Deeply blue

HC_B - 29/12/97

[1.30 AM]

Point of No Return

Point of No Return

I'm on the point

Of no more return

Hope that I can win

Hope that I can earn

The sight is bad

The weather rough

The tank goes blank

No route's enough

The passengers around and back

Panic, transmitting really pressure

This is no flight of harmony at all

No peace, no time, no pleasure

Responsibility spoils my nerves

Like a hotshot, well, kind of  crazy

And the mechanics out of control

Are working terribly some lazy

Lots of lights around me blinking

Some good, some ok, and some not

Various perspectives of no of a way

Without finally finding a final plot

Gigantic water stares down under

May kill or as well may be what save

Maybe smooth and mercy to survive

May be hard and cold like a grave

The airplane simply doesn't count anymore

The paramount importance is salvation

Hope, please,  give me the power

Against that dark invasion

Wings of destination are chippy

Wirings are inauspiciously blasting

Pain and fears of inexperience

Seem like for everlasting

I'm on a some way

No idea where to or how

But still alive and breathing

Up here I believe in NOW

HC_B - 30/11/09

[8:14 AM]

You Know I Could

You Know I Could

I know what's beautiful

I know what's some good

I know what lingers

Delicious food

And maybe I should

Because, YES, I could

You know it, I could

WHATEVER I want

And it would be GOOD

But heaven is not

Just about me!

That is not

WHAT I WAS MEANT TO BE

I know what's lovely

I know what's so sweet

I know when someone 

 Offers the beat

So maybe I should

Because, YES, I could

You know that I could

WHATEVER I want

And it would be GOOD

But heaven is not

Just about me!

That is not

WHAT I WAS MEANT TO BE

I know what's crazy

I know what's, yum, Gee!

I know what many 

People see

And maybe I should

Because, YES, I could

You know, oh, I could

WHATEVER I want

And it would be GOOD

But heaven is not

Just about me!

That is not

WHAT I WAS MEANT TO BE

Maybe I am so proudly 

Such a loyal and a little fool

But I want YOU there truly

GOD, right here to rule

HC_B - 01/11/97

[10:30 PM]

Little Lion

Little Lion

I'm not alone

I'm not with you

I'm feeling homeless

You say you love to see me smile

But you know I actually feel like crying

You say that you see another person now

But it's only a part of the million ones

That make my own person complete

You say: Don't tell me what to do!

But I was only begging and I

Never ever wanted to

I'm of your kind

I understand

I don't want to cry

Because I love to see you love

I don't want to be any other person

Than the only one you passionately desire

Come into my arms and let me feel you begging

So I will  do my very best and I won't let it even be

I want to feel home, my heart

To let you see my serendipitous smile

I want to feel the new red for the old blue

Being your incomplete complete person

I want to feel home as never before 

Home sweet home with you

Don't be anxious, my little lion

Anxious, unsteady  or insecure

You are worth that million

I'm ever so very sure

I'm of your kind

I understand

Come on, be my big lion

And hold my hand

HC_B - 15/06/96

[3:50 PM]

Auge in Auge mit dem Bösen

Auge in Auge mit dem Bösen

Mein Gott, mein Herrscher

Ich knie hernieder, ich flehe dich an

Laß mich tun, was du zu tun vermagst

Und nicht nur, was ich eben kann

Die Hölle öffnet sich vor mir, die Schlucht

Der Teufel will mich in den Abgrund schlagen

Ich kann keine Zukunft mehr ohne Dich

Ohne Deine ganze Liebe haben

Der Teufelskreis schnürt sich

Und auch mir so den ganzen Atem zu

Ich werde meines Lebens nicht mehr glücklich

Wenn ich nicht in deinen Armen ruh‘

Die Offenbarung liegt nahe

Wie im Bösen, wie im Guten

Tausend Sterne, so wie

Tausend Ruten

Sie werden dich verfolgen

Auch werden sie dich schlagen

Sie werden dich verurteilen

Und auch zu Tode plagen

Gott stehe mir bei

Ich leide jene bittere Qual

Warum hast du mich verlassen

So langsam oder auf ein Mal

Ich "weiß", dass du ja weißt

Denn sie wissen nicht, was sie tun

Und sie kommen über mich

Wie ein riesen Taifun

Gott, oh, mein gnädiger Gott

Ich habe meine ganze Liebe vertan

Nun sehe ich in die Grimasse des Teufels

In seinen erschreckenden und irren Wahn

Hinfort mein Leben

Hinfort meine Passion

Hinfort das Abendmahl

Nur noch bitterer Hohn

Öffne die Pforten des Himmels

Allmächtiger Herrscher, für mich

Sende eine Armee von Engeln

Mein Gott, ich liebe dich

HC_B - 14/06/09

[4:00 PM]

Only Pray

Only Pray

Too much love to so die

And that not enough to live

What am I supposed to get

And what can I so give

It's so awfully some sad

Not to sing a brighter song

Not to glance much lighter

Only to getting so along

What so can I do

What can I even say

To find peace in you

I guess only pray

Pray for a tomorrow

Bright as the golden sun

Pray for the loveliness

Honesty and fun

HC_B - 25/12/97

[4:00 PM]

Just a Man

Just a Man

I'm just a pilgrim

I'm just some man

I'm doing quite well

The best so that I can

My ambitions are holy

My ambitions are fine

My life doesn't fit

It's a crime

Slowly running

Speaking but stunning

Although I'm born to rise

For to love and surprise

Damned you! - Suspense

The adventure is to be I

I'm near to handle it

Don't know why

What does it mean now

Really, to be strong

Whoever you are

Come along

I am so bored

Just to be adored

I wanna be loved

Jesus! My Lord.

HC_B - 12/10/01

[8:30 PM]

Geil

Geil

Ich spüre die Fleischeslust

Im reichen ergebenen Haremsgebiet

Im Überfluss der erwählten Weiblichkeit

Untergeben dem vorherrschendem Glied

Ich spüre ein forsches Ziehen

Zu dir hin und in mich tief hinein

Ein Wallen, ein Wollen, ein Brauen

Einen so geballten Sonnenschein

Denn es breitet sich hier und da aus

Bis dort hin zu meinem, ja, Herzen

Und strömt durch meinen Körper

Wie gönnerhafte Schmerzen

Und ich küsse deine Hände

In dieser süssen Erinnerung

Und lecke gierig deine Stirn

Wie die Katze ihren Trunk

Ich bäume meinen Leib deiner 

Verzweifelten Trieblust entgegen

Und ich stumpfe meine Krallen

Liebend dennoch verwegen

Die Lava sie brodelt in dem Innern

Im dem bereit zum Ausbruch Vulkan

Bereit die Wallungen zu verbreiten

Bereit zum einzig wahren Wahn

Mich entzücken diese lebendigen Zuckungen

Deiner Männlichkeit so stark und so fein

Die die Untiefen erkunden möchten

Und gern für immer in mir sein

Ich erfasse, ich erfühle und ich ertaste

Im Taumel und in klarer Trans diese Deine

Vorgeschobene Verletzlichkeit, nackt und frei

Das pralle Leben deiner zwischen Gebeine

Ich ersehne mir deine Stimme rau & stark

Unter dem Seufzen und unter Stöhnen

Erhoffe mir meinen und die Namen

Im Gewöhnen ohne zu gewöhnen

Ich gedenke deinem Ja

So scheu und so zärtlich vage

Ganz sicher ein süsser Höhepunkt

Mithin der rührende Klang einer Frage

In Erinnerung, die Spitzen meiner Finger

Verheissen mir bescheidenes, forciertes Glück

Doch ich wünsche mir diese Wunder

Deiner Leidenschaft zurück

HC_B - 27/06/09

[12:00 PM]

Ego Carpo Diem

Ergo Carpo Diem

None of that! No, shoot! No more of "being" pathetic

For upholding a glimpse of pity, not even or at all

I’m as worth every mighty blooming bit, as 

Colored leaves are adored in the fall

ERGO, fair enough, CARPO DIEM

I know what to do, if and when I don’t

I know how to esteem the you and the me

Whereas you absolutely e’er or n’er won’t

I know how to cherish the birds in the sky

When there’s no sun, only lowering cloud

How to withstand the stupid humiliation

Being water, my friend, in the doubt

Solace finds its solid way

Halfway through discrimination

Painting placidly and blandly a smile

On agony and chummy, gosh!, frustration

  

NUNC, NOW, TOMORROW and naughty then

I’ll upgrade myself to progress, such legendary PRO

When a better new day or better the better new so life

By gum, Lord JESUS! - When life cursing wants it SO!

I’ll carve, I'll consume, cross my heart, I'll erode at best

I’ll despoil, fleece busily and pursue the holy tricky day

I’ll harry, separate and divide, I tear down at a stretch

Very deliberately getting forth away and a/the way

I’m stepping forward, even backwards and forwards

Time marches on - I wish I could say - it is neck and neck

I’ll begin over again and again and again - if need, so it will be

Give some devils its aimed due and hit right and straight back

And accordingly acting accordingly, by the sunny, oh so, way

Anybody or any body I like is fine, so accordant, also mine

As so you are anybody until I hit my intrinsic other me

DELICIOUSLY, dearly, beloved and DEVINE

HC_B - 05/06/15

[05:15 PM]