One Of A Kind

One Of A Kind

Oh, why can't I just wish you straight to hell

Why can't I just stop giving you the words

Yes, why can't I just make you love me

When the absence of it simply hurts

Why do you have all those preferences

You know my preferences are you

Why can't I be proud without

You in my every day anew

Why do I fear to be proud anyway?

'Cause I fear to be arrogant at all?

That people use to think of me

Any way they want me to fall

You seem to be an exception

At some times you seem to care

Sometimes I feel security and sense

Feel to be treated benignly, jovially, fair

Why do I have to be even more far away?

Therewith you to be some more near?

Why can't you decide once for all?

Who are you? There and here.

I'm afraid that I will die all alone

Without a friend, or a dear, or a soul

I'm afraid that I never will be complete

That I will never embody an important role

Why do I appear stupid when I am in love?

Why everybody does romance, but not me?

Why can't I just count on you further on?

Why can't you just let it happen to be?

Why all these questions again?

Why can't I be a certainty?

Waking up every day?

As in you as in me

No, I can't wish you to hell, I need the breadcrumbs 

For to find and to follow my way again back home

You kill, eat me or save me, I'm at your mercy

Not anywhere near 'I'd rather be alone'

This usually works, this usually fits

Usually is my solution way out

Usually, it gives me power 

Usually, that's all about

I wish I could go

Leaving you behind

Wish you were and also

You weren't, one of a kind

H.C. Thiesgen (Behrens)

Saturday 5th August 2017

11:25 hrs. ( MET + )

Sway for Affection

Sway for Affection

Maybe you are right and I don’t deserve

Somebody in my life at all, not any fool nor soul

Maybe I’ve been messing up such a life time, enough

For love ever or someday happen to stay, or play a final role

Maybe you all are right to ignore me

To live all your lives far away

And don’t care that lot

Anyhow, anyway

Whatever, whenever

The chase may be

Don’t get here

On my knee

My youth is gone

Looks fade and fade

Try not to get bitter

Try not to hate

Outside some stormy weathers

Keep alive some feelings, some reflects

I haven’t found what I was looking for yet

Seems like the nearer the goal, the harder it gets

But I am grateful, I have faith

There must be a reason for that all

Some release, some exhale, satisfaction

Still in the game, sometimes I touch the ball

What can I do, my God, to catch enthusiasm, again?

And get rid of what takes me ever so down

What can I do to find my peace?

To earn my holy crown?

I don’t want love

To pay for it

Love, for

Love

I want just love for nothing

With no cloudy shadow above

Boy, I’m also tired of wagering beyond

Why can’t I be even happy without

Why do I have to fake it, and?

Be woe-humbled so proud

So heart and pain is a no-go in literature

Well, that’s a surprise and not true, but okay

I’m nobody, I’m poor, I’m not a hit anymore

But I’m still here, not that bad, for a sway

A sway for you to lovely come

A sway over your heart & soul

A sway full of such happiness

A sway right to the goal

Now, “sway with me”

And let me know

Let it all live

Let go.

H.C. Thiesgen

Wednesday 24^th May

13:30 hrs. (MET +)

  

Die Krone in der Hand

Die Krone in der Hand

Der Kreis hat sich nun geschlossen

Das Blatt hat sich herum gedreht

Nur alles oder nichts jetzt noch

Was zwischen uns hier steht

Der Frühling bereit sich vor

Der Winter geht vorbei

Das Positive zählt

Auf das Gedeih

Düstere Türme zerfallen

Verfliegen im rauhenWind

Und wachsend verharrend

Traumbeseelt das Kind

Der Staub in geteilter Luft

Setzt sich angeregt zur Ruhe

Und ummantelt ohnmächtig

Den Schatz in dieser Truhe

Diese Truhe, die geblieben

Ungeplündert, unvergessen

In Reinheit und strahlend

Von Dämonen besessen

Nur ist er zu befördern

Und er wiegt sehr schwer

Bewegt in seiner Erfüllung

Fühlt man es nicht mehr

Allerdings sollte man ihn hüten

Mit guten Augen drauf verweilen

Und nicht geradewegs besessen

In die Verdammnis mit eilen

Der Friede ist gar so prächtig

Der Friede ist sinnig und eigen

Der Friede ist ein feiner Tanz

Ein Zweigen in dem Reigen

HC_Behrens

March 19, 2009

[15:45 hrs]

No Night before Dawn

No Night before Dawn

Can you see me

This little homely me

Poor and lonesome

As one can be

A firestorm

Around my neck

The desert's calling

For one more wreck

Empty rooms

In empty spaces

Fading memories

Trite fading faces

Empty hearts

Desires and love

Empty blue skies

There high above

Don't want to die

Beyond a real smile

 No, don't want to cry

Walking that mile

God give me happiness

To cover my weary bones

God give me some peace

After too many homes

Let me gladly wake up

With the sun on my face

Blood in all my heart

Power and grace

Open that door

I'm quite longing for

And long before daylight

Ain't be no night there anymore

HC_B - 19/11/08

[10:45 PM]

Point of No Return

Point of No Return

I'm on the point

Of no more return

Hope that I can win

Hope that I can earn

The sight is bad

The weather rough

The tank goes blank

No route's enough

The passengers around and back

Panic, transmitting really pressure

This is no flight of harmony at all

No peace, no time, no pleasure

Responsibility spoils my nerves

Like a hotshot, well, kind of  crazy

And the mechanics out of control

Are working terribly some lazy

Lots of lights around me blinking

Some good, some ok, and some not

Various perspectives of no of a way

Without finally finding a final plot

Gigantic water stares down under

May kill or as well may be what save

Maybe smooth and mercy to survive

May be hard and cold like a grave

The airplane simply doesn't count anymore

The paramount importance is salvation

Hope, please,  give me the power

Against that dark invasion

Wings of destination are chippy

Wirings are inauspiciously blasting

Pain and fears of inexperience

Seem like for everlasting

I'm on a some way

No idea where to or how

But still alive and breathing

Up here I believe in NOW

HC_B - 30/11/09

[8:14 AM]