AMEN

AMEN

I want to learn...

To get hold of myself 

I want to learn...

Not to cry,

I want to learn...

Seriously, not to care 

Sometimes,

I want to learn...

How to fly...! 

I want to learn to...

Easily hold someone

And be sure to me 

Once and again,

I want to learn...

How to use my power

And be my own 

Big fan. 

I want to learn...

To sleep at night just having

Sweet, sweet dreams,

How to hold you tight

And, know what it means.

I want to learn...

How to write a song

That is actually be sung

And not vanished into air,

How to make you trust 

How to let you care.

I want to learn...

Not to be that scared

Under my courage,

To travel light

With

Without

Such Luggage.

I want to learn...

To make you want me

The way that I want you,

To start something and...

Really, follow through.

I want to learn...

To truly be that such me

Whoever that may be,

How to fit enough

Freely and free.

Am I a fool...?

Am I worthwhile...?

Or am I just to be taken...?

Once in a while...!

I'm afraid to get to the other side...!

I'm afraid to awaken...!

But I can do it

"Anything"

Well, I can do it 

With you,

I can worship

Can follow

I can

Seriously, be true...!

I want to learn..., how to

Stop acting like a "little girl"

And start acting "like a man",

Want to escape all sabotage

And give the world 

All that I am.

I want to learn..., how to, how...

Besides having lots of work, how to

Actually gaining some money,

Being still adorable

Even when

Even if,

Not being funny...!

I want to learn...

Who and what for I  am

When I don't sleep, 

Eat, or write,

I want to learn...

Who's the best in me, inside?

I want to learn...

(Even just for a while)

To respect, trust and love

Just myself for a change

More than my next,

How to speak my feelings,

Without any kind of text.

Yes, I want to learn to...

How to do constantly some more, well

Not, even get hurt in my dreams,

I want to see how things are

And not how it seems.

I want so badly to learn...

How to walk lightly and unfazed

No matter the status quo of the posts,

Without being burdened by my complex

By my demons and my ancient ghosts,

"My dearest, my love of my life..."

I want to learn to...

What matters

Most.

I want to learn...

How to ever control my emotions

How to get angry a lot, without

Transform to a "Hulk",

I want to learn...

Being 

A big child

An adult.

Mostly I want to learn to...

Neither fall in love too easily

Nor that extreme hardly,

To affect you 

Gently 

As a

"CORE WAVE"

Not...

As a 

Dazzling,

Mind-blowing

All-consuming

(Friggin')

"HARDCORE PARTY"...!

I want to learn...

How to cry out loudly

My joyful happiness,

I want to learn...

To confess,

I want to learn...

How to forget everything

Around me,

Around all you,

Around God...!

"And just bloody BLESS...!"

Am I a fool...?

Am I worthwhile...?

Or am I just to be taken...?

Once in a while...!

I'm afraid to get to the other side...!

I'm afraid to awaken...!

But I can do it

"Anything"

Well, I can do it 

With you

I can worship

Can follow

I can

Seriously, be true...!

HC_Behrens

September 27, 2016

[08:30 hrs]

Zero

ZERO

Here I am at zero when you come to think of it a moment

Well. - That’s quite what I wanted at a point in so long

Without being fixed to it or a “Cardinal” direction 

With merely minus potential to go such wrong

I’m not going to accept or even join kind of

A human, to put it lightly, some fascist scale

Being an absolute error from where I stand

Without any human or legal right to fail

Let me show you who I am or also not

The way I feel or also will not some so how

Help me to soften my being and what will be

For a sparkle of righteous right, right now

I am not a sister, no father, and no mother

Not a daughter, neither fish nor fowl, not a son

I’m not a friend, no enemy, no subject, no object

No professional in public, no figure, no one

Though I'm not an idiot 

Nor danger nor a fool

Charge or burden

Hardly cruel

I’m sick of any distance of what, the hell, should be near

Want things besides or near - nearby, in, inner or better here

Being believed to be special, no queer, being someone’s dear

A handsome me in you and a beautiful you in me to cheer

I’m smart and stupid, fun, serious, a leading light

As well as a fight for the future, laying all by my side

I am "Adam and Eve", some serpent and an apple

A constant challenge, "Prejudice & Pride"

I am an eye catcher and so a stopper  

I am a star, talent and waste, I’m a fan

Hardly known and hardly forgotten 

Nine times out of that famous ten

I’m so much loyalty inside, pur Inspiration

Heavenly paradise or funky spunky hell

I'm an ugly malfunction of a venture

That's pretty doing quite well

I am an ocean, challenged and I am the country

Pre-eminently water, I’ m no single or all tear

Dying up and down to live or to let die

I love at all, without all fear

I am not what you may expect of what I am

But a hopscotch of nothing and a pile of a lot

Enthusiastic, adorable, vulnerable & strong

No wrong or no right, just a child of God

HC_Behrens

February 2, 2012

[17:11 hrs]

Geil

Geil

Ich spüre die Fleischeslust

Im reichen ergebenen Haremsgebiet

Im Überfluss der erwählten Weiblichkeit

Untergeben dem vorherrschendem Glied

Ich spüre ein forsches Ziehen

Zu dir hin und in mich tief hinein

Ein Wallen, ein Wollen, ein Brauen

Einen so geballten Sonnenschein

Denn es breitet sich hier und da aus

Bis dort hin zu meinem, ja, Herzen

Und strömt durch meinen Körper

Wie gönnerhafte Schmerzen

Und ich küsse deine Hände

In dieser süssen Erinnerung

Und lecke gierig deine Stirn

Wie die Katze ihren Trunk

Ich bäume meinen Leib deiner 

Verzweifelten Trieblust entgegen

Und ich stumpfe meine Krallen

Liebend dennoch verwegen

Die Lava sie brodelt in dem Innern

Im dem bereit zum Ausbruch Vulkan

Bereit die Wallungen zu verbreiten

Bereit zum einzig wahren Wahn

Mich entzücken diese lebendigen Zuckungen

Deiner Männlichkeit so stark und so fein

Die die Untiefen erkunden möchten

Und gern für immer in mir sein

Ich erfasse, ich erfühle und ich ertaste

Im Taumel und in klarer Trans diese Deine

Vorgeschobene Verletzlichkeit, nackt und frei

Das pralle Leben deiner zwischen Gebeine

Ich ersehne mir deine Stimme rau & stark

Unter dem Seufzen und unter Stöhnen

Erhoffe mir meinen und die Namen

Im Gewöhnen ohne zu gewöhnen

Ich gedenke deinem Ja

So scheu und so zärtlich vage

Ganz sicher ein süsser Höhepunkt

Mithin der rührende Klang einer Frage

In Erinnerung, die Spitzen meiner Finger

Verheissen mir bescheidenes, forciertes Glück

Doch ich wünsche mir diese Wunder

Deiner Leidenschaft zurück

HC_B - 27/06/09

[12:00 PM]

Anhelo

Anhelo

Anhelo tu mirada linda

Este tu inagotable querer

Anhelo tu precioso cariño

Antes del amanecer



Anhelo este destino

Anhelo el distinto hacer

Anhelo tu fluente deseo

Tu escandaloso placer



Anhelo el misterio claro

El específicamente común

Anhelo el sin duda peligro

Este exactamente algún



Anhelo cualquier tu vida

Anhelo tristemente felicidad

Anhelo que tú me anhelas

En cualquier soledad




HC_B - 16/12/00

[10:20 AM]