Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Sounds of Silence


Sounds of Silence

Silence is the sound of what is based
On what you apparently now feel
 Matters you are experiencing
What appears to be is real

Not always is what you feel
Automatically, even all true
Neither as it simply brings
Celestial peace's to you

How can I escape the silence of my dreams
That haunt me without any word out of the night
Into the daylight's silence's of my own impeachment
Neither here nor there I seem to be able to make it right

Only my daydreams have some nicer touch
Are able to present me some lovely view
Although there is lots of noise around
This silence is refreshing to be new

Yeah, you, my silence of love and fear
Wether you're touchable far or deaf to near
You're the unavoidable essence of my being
The two and only things about to be clear

Oh, well, anything else? What about my words?
Are they the silence of my feelings from time to time?
Are they the silent bridge or a silent wall? Or even both?
Are they all honest whole-and holiness, or partially crime?

They say: "You find "God" in the silence, in the quiet, the calm."
But I also find "the Devil", the damnation to my past or fears
It all depends how I feel about you, how you make me feel
Or I'm the happiest being ever, or downhearted to tears

I know I have a choice, whenever I am, wherever I go
So you may be what I want it to be, my decision
The silence of goodness or badness, however
You are my most invisible kind of vision

Mingle with my silence, and we'll see
What sounds may turn music to enjoy
I hope it'll more silent than all the noise
That's called my silence without you, oh boy

By and large, both on the large and small scale
Your words are more silent to me than my stillness
You're sound of silence in affection, and your caring
Brings healing silence instead of the silence of illness

"You won't go any further, ...": you said.
"Without feeling your purpose and soul again."
Neither will I, my lovely one, my, you tell me, my dear.

Up until than hush, Baby!
By then you'll continue being
My favorite silence, love or fear...


H.C. Thiesgen (Behrens)
Thurs. 3rd August 2017

18:50 hrs. ( MET + )

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

Manning Up To You


Manning Up To You

I know how much you love to see me laugh
But, please, let me be serious just once in a while
Let me be seriously in love, serious in this state of mind
And, in this seriousness, let my heart heal, let my heart smile

I know how you'd like to take control
To take over and make it your own game
But, please, give it all up, let it go and happen
My love, you are safe, here with me, I feel the same

I know, you are all impatient
Lacking time in all the time you have
But, please trust your chances, trust heaven
Things will be fine, in harmony, on your behalf

I'd like to go on the offensive betimes, ever and anon
Grab your sweet body, your universe, your precious being
Stick it in my experience, my hell and heaven, and my paradise
Would like to hear all you hear, feel the same, see what you're seeing

Darling, love is free like the horse in the prairie connected with other ones, free
Wanting to stay by your side, being led without any strings, without any fear
Deep down in the bottom of my soul, I can feel you, making bigger sense
Whether you are far away, absent - or terribly aware, terribly near

I know you love to be proactive, in the run-up for 
To move, to go on, and do and do and do
But, please, let me man up to you
Please, let me do you!


H.C. Thiesgen ( Behrens )
Tuesday 4th July 2017
14:10 hrs. ( MET + )

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Die Waffe im Gebet


Die Waffe im Gebet

Wie kommt es, dass du im Kampf geboren bist
Doch alles um dich ist weich, freundlich und zart
Wenn hingegen ein sogenanntes "Kind des Friedens"
Sich fühlt, als wäre es unliebsam, unbeugsam und hart

Wie kommt es, dass die Stille, die dich umgibt
Mich ummantelt und schützt, statt verletzt
Und Worte, die ich bekämpfen würde
Mich in ein Schweigen versetzt

Wie kommt es, daß ich weiß
Daß ich dir so trauen kann
Und meine Beine so gehen
Mit diesem Herzen voran

Wie kommt es, mal ganz im Ernst
Daß auch immer dieses Lachen lebt
Und die Welt sich in Bewegung setzt
Und ein ganz neues Leben entsteht

Wie kommt es, daß in der Jugend
So viel mehr an Erwachsenem steckt
Und langsam, vielleicht auch schneller
Einen neuen Menschen in mir erweckt

Wie kommt es, daß ich ganz alleine
Ich nicht mehr ganz einsam bin
Und Sonne, Mond und Sterne
Ziehen weniger vor sich hin

Sie ziehen größere Kreise
Sie strahlen ein helleres Licht
Sie spenden weit mehr Wärme
Sie bescheren dieses Gesicht

Jenes Gesicht mit jenen Augen
Die geschult nach der Wahrheit seh'n
Jenen Augen, die ruhend in sich gekehrt
Auch in Unsicherheit sicher im Leben steh'n

Wie kommt es, daß du mir verzeihen wirst
Diese so mindestens einundzwanzig Mal
Wie kommt es, daß ein wildes Pferd
Vertrauen gewinnt, ganz genial

Wie kommt es, daß ich weinen möchte
Obwohl ich eigentlich doch nicht traurig bin
Und auch keine Tränen diesen Tag begrüßen
An dem ich mit diesen Vögeln schon sing

Ein neueres Lied und ein neues Gedicht
Einen neuen Abschnitt, ein neues Stück
Vielleicht hat die Traurigkeit ein Ende
Vielleicht kommt die Freude zurück


H.C. Thiesgen
Tuesday 27th June, 2017
07:05 hrs. ( MET + )

Friday, September 30, 2016

Kisses for the Past


Kisses for the Past



I've been close to you
And now I'm 
Not,

I'm 
On my WAY
To get what it's got.

To get what's mine for REAL,
To get what's mine for me to FEEL.

I'm JUST all right
I'm just OK,

I am 
Quite relaxed
And on my WAY.

Give me JUST
One more kisses to

LEAVE'm TO THE PAST,

Give me JUST
One more
LOVE,


For SOME ...

Faith,

For SOME ...

Reason,

For SOME ...

Blood

HERE TO LAST...!

JUST give me 
SOME more kisses
For me "To GO",
To "Let it GO",

JUST give me
SOME more kisses
For me to KNOW!
To KNOW,

That I'm worth doing, worth striving for...!

To KNOW,

That I'm worthwhile all that dulcet smile...!

To KNOW,

That I'm worth the trouble...!
And worth one's while...!

You have been too good to be TRUE
That ONE PERCENT, but the perverse,
I really appreciate your HONESTY
All your power to rehearse.

I have the GUTS,
I have the big HEART,
I have the very VISION,
What's up and next
To come and 
Expect

Is simply "GOD's"
decision...!


HC_Behrens
September 29, 2016
[10:25 hrs]






Tuesday, September 27, 2016

AMEN



AMEN



I want to learn...

To get hold of myself 
I want to learn...
Not to cry,

I want to learn...

Seriously, not to care 
Sometimes,

I want to learn...

How to fly...! 

I want to learn to...

Easily hold someone
And be sure to me 
Once and again,

I want to learn...

How to use my power
And be my own 
Big fan. 

I want to learn...

To sleep at night just having
Sweet, sweet dreams,

How to hold you tight
And, know what it means.

I want to learn...

How to write a song
That is actually be sung
And not vanished into air,
How to make you trust 
How to let you care.

I want to learn...

Not to be that scared
Under my courage,
To travel light
With
Without
Such Luggage.

I want to learn...

To make you want me
The way that I want you,
To start something and...
Really, follow through.

I want to learn...

To truly be that such me
Whoever that may be,
How to fit enough
Freely and free.

Am I a fool...?
Am I worthwhile...?
Or am I just to be taken...?

Once in a while...!

I'm afraid to get to the other side...!
I'm afraid to awaken...!

But I can do it
"Anything"

Well, I can do it 
With you,

I can worship
Can follow
I can

Seriously, be true...!

I want to learn..., how to
Stop acting like a "little girl"
And start acting "like a man",
Want to escape all sabotage
And give the world 
All that I am.

I want to learn..., how to, how...
Besides having lots of work, how to
Actually gaining some money,
Being still adorable
Even when
Even if,

Not being funny...!

I want to learn...

Who and what for I  am
When I don't sleep, 
Eat, or write,

I want to learn...

Who's the best in me, inside?

I want to learn...

(Even just for a while)

To respect, trust and love
Just myself for a change
More than my next,

How to speak my feelings,
Without any kind of text.

Yes, I want to learn to...

How to do constantly some more, well
Not, even get hurt in my dreams,
I want to see how things are
And not how it seems.

I want so badly to learn...

How to walk lightly and unfazed
No matter the status quo of the posts,
Without being burdened by my complex
By my demons and my ancient ghosts,

"My dearest, my love of my life..."

I want to learn to...
What matters
Most.

I want to learn...

How to ever control my emotions
How to get angry a lot, without
Transform to a "Hulk",

I want to learn...

Being 
A big child
An adult.

Mostly I want to learn to...
Neither fall in love too easily
Nor that extreme hardly,

To affect you 
Gently 

As a

"CORE WAVE"

Not...

As a 

Dazzling,
Mind-blowing
All-consuming

(Friggin')

"HARDCORE PARTY"...!

I want to learn...

How to cry out loudly
My joyful happiness,
I want to learn...
To confess,

I want to learn...

How to forget everything

Around me,
Around all you,
Around God...!

"And just bloody BLESS...!"

Am I a fool...?
Am I worthwhile...?
Or am I just to be taken...?
Once in a while...!

I'm afraid to get to the other side...!
I'm afraid to awaken...!

But I can do it
"Anything"
Well, I can do it 
With you

I can worship
Can follow
I can

Seriously, be true...!



HC_Behrens
September 27, 2016
[08:30 hrs]

Saturday, September 24, 2016

De Cor


De Cor


Eu sou e serei tudinho e absolutamente livre
Assim conectado, ligado, amarrado
E juntinho com você

Tu serás agora e doravante
Noite e dia, e a pequena morte
Neste novo amanhecer

Eu te conheço, a tua alma
A insustentável leveza
De tu seres, de cor

Porque involuntariamente desejando
Eu detectei este seu amor

De cima por baixo
Por foras e por o dentro
De maneira concreta e absoluta
Sem antes, dentro e depois do vento

Nesta eternidade limitada da existência
E a ilusão vaga de todas às certezas
Do espaço que se chama tempo

Eu vivo por seu lindo querer
Eu vivo por aquele, o seu prazer
Eu vivo por servir ao teu caminho
Nesta caminhada deste seu viver

Eu vivo atrás do seu horizonte
Abraçando-te a partir de retaguarda
Ao você o sentimentalmente olhando

E quando você me toca do seu jeitinho
Eu jamais esqueço isso e acabo 
De longe te admirando

Tu és o verdadeiro doce
Eu com cigarro falso na mão
Esperada, más valeu a pena
Deus pertinho e um cão

Sempre subirei nesta tua peça de movimento
Me alivio nas tuas palavras calmantes e gentíos
Procurando a direção, um lugar, e o destino
Entre escuridão, certezas, luzes e rios

Eu amo a memoria de você com Djavan
Eu amo esta onda que esta perpetuando ainda
Com minha alma dançando eu tal tal voando
Nesta aurora de vocês tão, tão, tão linda

Mesmo que observo as tuas simples mentiras
Entre o complexo invisível da verdade
Eu escolho em qualquer língua
A viver esta saudade

Eu sou e serei tudinho e absolutamente livre
Assim conectado, ligado, amarrado
E juntinho com você

Tu serás agora e doravante
Noite e dia, e a pequena morte
Neste novo amanhecer

Eu te conheço, a tua alma
A insustentável leveza
De tu seres, de cor

Porque involuntariamente desejando
Eu detectei este seu grande amor


HC_Behrens
Saturday 24, 2016
[11:30 hrs]









Wednesday, June 15, 2016

So Weit, So Gut, So Besser


So Weit, So Gut, So Besser


Wenn ich sterbe, möchte ich, dass du weisst
Ich habe dich immer und wirklich geliebt
Du warst für mich dieser Grund
Der mir den Boden gibt 

Wenn ich dann sterbe 
Und du fühlst dich allein 
Möchte ich für dich dieser 
Grund und Boden sein 

Wenn ich einmal sterbe 
Unerwartet und unverhofft 
Möchte ich, dass du glücklich bist 
Mehr als nur ein wenig, sondern oft 

Wenn ich also verlasse 
Diese so sehr schöne Welt 
Denke nicht, dass damit 
Alles zusammenfällt 

Alle Vögel singen dir weiter 
Meine, deine und neue Lieder 
Sie putzen sich unermüdlich 
Ihr flaumiges Gefieder 

Werde ich also einmal fort sein 
Tanze die Wonne eng umschlungen 
Mit Seligkeit, Mut und Freude 
Und süssen Erinnerungen 

Gehe ich hinfort 
Gehe ich dort hinüber 
Stehe nicht zaudernd still 
Gehe mit mir darüber 

Erlange ich diese Unendlichkeit 
In des Himmels bereitenden Armen 
Schenke dir in Raum und Zeit 
Frieden und Erbarmen 

Führe ich unendlich 
Und werde endlich geführt 
Werde ich es hoffentlich sein 
Der dich heilend berührt 

Wenn ich tot bin 
Ohne doch tot zu sein 
Gedenke Gott, der Liebe 
Mein ganzes Leben mein 


HC_Behrens 
May 22, 2009 
[13:15 hrs]

Saturday, June 11, 2016

Katholische Strenge


Katholische Strenge



Deine Strenge macht mir Angst
Aber ich habe sie so gut wie im Griff
Ich überschaue die drohende Klippe
Lieber sehe die Schönheit am Riff

Verkrustungen und Verhärtungen 
Der zu lange durchlebten Übelkeit 
Weichen langsam Erinnerungen 
An eine gute, bessere alte Zeit 

Die Gebote und Vorschriften 
Lösen sich unaufhaltsam auf 
In einem neuen Testament 
Zu einem neuen Verlauf 

Süsse Worte der Vergebung 
Ergeben endlich ihren Sinn 
Und ergiessen Erlösung 
Für unser Leben hin 

Du näherst dich um mich herum 
Bist schon wie Gott fast überall 
Und bringst dieses Paradies 
Wie einst vor dem Fall 

Ich nehme jenen Grashalm 
Und mache daraus süsse Musik 
Ich bin positiv und treu erbaut 
Nicht überholt, nicht antik 

Manchmal muss man verlieren 
Um wieder daraus zu gewinnen 
Und erneut und frohen Mutes, 
Ungeahntes zu erringen 

Lass uns diese Wüste verlassen 
Wir haben aus Dornen gelernt 
Mit dem Stiel ungebrochen 
Zusammen unentfernt 

Geniessen wir doch den Duft 
Der neu betört und vereint 
Der Dreieinigkeit, die es 
Gut mit uns meint 

Jesus als Vorbild 
Von mir aus, ein Ideal 
Keine Skepsis oder Strenge 
Ein versprechendes Abendmahl 



HC_Behrens 
May 26, 2009 
[10:35 hrs]

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Thou Art. You are. Now, what?


Thou Art. You Are. Now, What?



The man is gone for you, for now, the one who 
Risked with courage and tried to convince
Looking at and up and for your love
Ever after, for now, ever since

The man's gone who trusted in you 
Because of him, because of God 
Denying himself and obeying 
A whole good deal of a lot 

That man was neglected, ignored and some mistrusted 
That man was ugly, even though unintentionally, hurt 
That man was a foolish dog, a slinky cat, then a tiger 
Now being some resolved "trying to fly away" bird 

Could it have been some better? 
Couldn't it even have been good? 
Couldn't he have been fortunate? 
Supposing, indeed, one could! 

What is left residual is the woman 
Fine, fragile, prideful and frighten 
Longing for her man to support 
Being precious and enlighten 

Longing to be convinced 
Longing to be found by clue 
Longing to be such surprised 
A better whole life through 

Sitting in between and behind her walls 
She's lonely but definitely secure 
She still has got love to give 
Heavenly, net and pure 

Could it have been better?
Could it have been that good? 
Could she even have succeeded?
 Yeah, yes, I guess, that she could? 

One person is so little 
But the being is very big 
And the hope is still alive 
For you, my God, to stick 

Now, who are you now? 
And who do you want to be? 
The woman who is some lost? 
Or the man going to be Gee! 

Do you want to fight for good? 
Do you want to choose forever? 
Do you want to be that hero? 
Do you want to be clever? 

Could it be yet any better? 
Could it even be real good? 
Could it be stupendous? 
Absolutely, it could!


HC_Behrens 
September 10, 2009 
[13:45 hrs]

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Fish in the Sea


Fish in the Sea


Let me just tell you that I love you
Let me love you for at least some now
Let me live the thrill of anticipation
Some here, some there, somehow

Lead me gently to the certain place
Where I truly ever will be weakly strong
Through your cryptic ocean of benevolence
All absent, the provoking and wanted way along

You have kissed me slightly in my soul 
Ignited a lovely fire to gently exude still astray
Guide me but yet with your tenderness right apart
To what might not be or perchance even may

Let me honor you and let me enthrall you
Meanwhile, you consider other stars all that true
And I am in this visceral primal oh feeling of arousal
That’s sprung from somewhere and is linked to you

You disarm me and I’m melting away and back
In the memory of the warmth of your mellow smile
You have made happen to be a nagging eternity
A single, short, for you minuscule while

Life self-fulfills its own rum prophecy
Like a golden snail spreads down or ashore
Whilst unraveled yet remaining a prodigy
Either to hate or even rather adore

Let me sense, revel and relish the genius part
Of present resistance dwelling to be carried through
Pulsating in the substantial power of delay
Pulsating here waiting for you

Neither be afraid, my harmony
Nor anywise differently insecure
Liberty leads the right aspects
Now and forever be sure


HC_B - 06 /02 /15
[19:25 PM]