Anticlimax

Anticlimax

It tugs at my heartstrings

You kind of lacerate my heart

You are the one I most care about

Being less mattering and poles apart

I'm dissociated from all potentialities

Eventualities, and all possible ways

I'm tolerated, a nice distraction

A love to go, not that stays

I'll be fine. I'll be good.

I'll be free and loved at last!

'De oppresso liber' from now on

My blood won't be shed but cast

I thought I've yet passed the worst

Couldn't sink deeper anymore no more

I figured that my sadness had rocked bottom

There was no more minimal turning point before

Why can't I just stay forever on my own and lonely side?

Why can't I just let go all that pathetic longing for connection?

Why can't I accept that life will always and forever be a battle field?

Stop revealing my position, and choose secrecy instead as my protection?

Why can't I be in, but out?

Why can't I be wise?

Why do I suck?

Off-price?

I will be free from oppression

I will liberate the oppressed me

From being an oppressed man

To being a free one, you'll see

"De oppresso liber"

I'm on my way

Love is here

To stay!

H.C. Thiesgen

Tuesday 25th July 2017

20:48 hrs. ( MET + )