No More Nigger Again

No More Nigger Again

Do not you dare tell me who I am

What I understand, or what I don't

What you see and know, generally

Wasn't enough, and never won't

You don't even understand

What you're doing to me

There's more than this

A big picture to see

Why do you hurt

Me, in my life?

Pictured me

And, boom!

Suddenly, I'm

All by myself again

All alone and desolate

All glum in my own room

Back again, from future to now

Behind again, in misery, kind of

Backed again to blues, and OK

Turning from on instead, off

Hating people, the world

The destiny, bad luck

Giving no damn

Fancying no

Fuck!

I'm no politician, I'm no rebel in a war

I'm no open mouth to stick your dick into

I'm no public sensation to enthrall you all

Or somewhat else destined to go coo-coo

Don't care for my tears? Alright.

That's something not to get

From someone solidary

No reason so to fret

Get rid of certainty

Get a reasonable doubt

Get ready to "un-know"

Shut up! And, get out!

I've heard enough

Won't stand it 

All again!

Hurry up,

Please. Weet!

Who I am.

HC_Thiesgen

March 8th, 2018

01:49 AM (GMT +)

Zero

ZERO

Here I am at zero when you come to think of it a moment

Well. - That’s quite what I wanted at a point in so long

Without being fixed to it or a “Cardinal” direction 

With merely minus potential to go such wrong

I’m not going to accept or even join kind of

A human, to put it lightly, some fascist scale

Being an absolute error from where I stand

Without any human or legal right to fail

Let me show you who I am or also not

The way I feel or also will not some so how

Help me to soften my being and what will be

For a sparkle of righteous right, right now

I am not a sister, no father, and no mother

Not a daughter, neither fish nor fowl, not a son

I’m not a friend, no enemy, no subject, no object

No professional in public, no figure, no one

Though I'm not an idiot 

Nor danger nor a fool

Charge or burden

Hardly cruel

I’m sick of any distance of what, the hell, should be near

Want things besides or near - nearby, in, inner or better here

Being believed to be special, no queer, being someone’s dear

A handsome me in you and a beautiful you in me to cheer

I’m smart and stupid, fun, serious, a leading light

As well as a fight for the future, laying all by my side

I am "Adam and Eve", some serpent and an apple

A constant challenge, "Prejudice & Pride"

I am an eye catcher and so a stopper  

I am a star, talent and waste, I’m a fan

Hardly known and hardly forgotten 

Nine times out of that famous ten

I’m so much loyalty inside, pur Inspiration

Heavenly paradise or funky spunky hell

I'm an ugly malfunction of a venture

That's pretty doing quite well

I am an ocean, challenged and I am the country

Pre-eminently water, I’ m no single or all tear

Dying up and down to live or to let die

I love at all, without all fear

I am not what you may expect of what I am

But a hopscotch of nothing and a pile of a lot

Enthusiastic, adorable, vulnerable & strong

No wrong or no right, just a child of God

HC_Behrens

February 2, 2012

[17:11 hrs]