Angry Splinter

Angry Splinter 

If there only could be ever someone

Who barred me from hurting me like this

I don't know if I can stand life further without

I'm miserable, faithless and sad just the way it is

Life is eating me up, my body, my feelings, and hope

I'm fighting it but don't know now who's actually winning
Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm getting ahead making progress

Or stay where I am or where I was already, keeping just spinning

Writing, it helps me and it adjusts me

But it's also driving me some nuts, crazy

It makes me lose people I care about a lot

It also makes me inflexible, in a way lazy

Why can't my tears overflow me once and for all
And, create a river for your ship to sail directly to me?

My soul is unhappy, torn apart, back and forth, repeatedly

"God", I need the full load,  the fuel feed to get out of the gloomy

I'm not sure anymore if I can make it

Grow up and make my own living

I've never learned it, not a bit

Nor accepting nor giving

I'm hungry, sad and I'm all lonely

I'm done with living on my own

I am tired of the idea to move

Oh, how I long to be home!

But, there's no home without a heart
But, yet my heart is where you are

But, where you are is far away

But, still, you are my star

Still, I wish you here

Still, I think you there

Still, you rule my world

Still, you seem pretty fair

Lord, I wish I could cry

And, shout out loud

Let me be loved!

And, proud!

H.C. Thiesgen

Mon 28th August 2007

08:50 PM ( GEM + )