One Of A Kind

One Of A Kind

Oh, why can't I just wish you straight to hell

Why can't I just stop giving you the words

Yes, why can't I just make you love me

When the absence of it simply hurts

Why do you have all those preferences

You know my preferences are you

Why can't I be proud without

You in my every day anew

Why do I fear to be proud anyway?

'Cause I fear to be arrogant at all?

That people use to think of me

Any way they want me to fall

You seem to be an exception

At some times you seem to care

Sometimes I feel security and sense

Feel to be treated benignly, jovially, fair

Why do I have to be even more far away?

Therewith you to be some more near?

Why can't you decide once for all?

Who are you? There and here.

I'm afraid that I will die all alone

Without a friend, or a dear, or a soul

I'm afraid that I never will be complete

That I will never embody an important role

Why do I appear stupid when I am in love?

Why everybody does romance, but not me?

Why can't I just count on you further on?

Why can't you just let it happen to be?

Why all these questions again?

Why can't I be a certainty?

Waking up every day?

As in you as in me

No, I can't wish you to hell, I need the breadcrumbs 

For to find and to follow my way again back home

You kill, eat me or save me, I'm at your mercy

Not anywhere near 'I'd rather be alone'

This usually works, this usually fits

Usually is my solution way out

Usually, it gives me power 

Usually, that's all about

I wish I could go

Leaving you behind

Wish you were and also

You weren't, one of a kind

H.C. Thiesgen (Behrens)

Saturday 5th August 2017

11:25 hrs. ( MET + )

Humble Home Embrace

Humble Home Embrace

Sometimes I hate certain people kind of, I guess, and yes, somehow

For misunderstanding, misjudging and mistreating me by far

They have not the slightest idea of who I really am

Or who even they in honesty and sincerity are

They keep spinning themselves a construct of figment

OK, but, heck and damn it not a bit of a bummer self-aware

Usually, I don't give a flying fig and take it with humor

Then sometimes I give a big shit and I do CARE

Sometimes I can't stand it, the intolerable

The impudence, the infamy, and the outright brass

That's when I feel violated, cumbered, conflicting for dear life

A "barking dog", snarling, baring its teeth, no false demeanor, no class

I've been always left on my own any old how

With no understanding, condemnation and disgust

I wish I could be recognized gently sometimes nevertheless

Met with ignorance or fear in those moments, I'd rather love trust

I'd love to be seen for what I am, be it ever so inside

None to be afraid of, no enemy and no devil in disguise

On contrary, I need to be protected once in a while

Can't anybody see it, be patient and be wise?

Is it possible to look into my eyes?

                                         And capture my naked me?                                        

Is it possible? 

To SEE?

The naively good I wish for everybody

Even though they're not treating me right

Is it possible to believe in palm lightness?

In the darkness of an ephemeral fight?

I need your help in moments like those and this

I need your best, your distinction and forbearance art

I need you connected, courageous and kindly

With me, for me, backing - not apart

Sometimes I'm my biggest enemy at that

For the reason alone leading opinions astray

For burden me lots of unbearable blame and guilt

For hiding in and for me, distracting and delay

I wish I had some arms around me

To give me shelter and a home

I wish I could give all me

To all and one alone

I don't want to limit anymore what I ever will have to give

Being afraid of it could be as usually, oh, always be too much

Let me cuddle you, embrace and care, be ingenuous

Be the one who loves all of it or else or such

I eventually will not contribute to secular kind of things

There may not be more money, more credit, and alike more fame

All I have to offer you is sincerity, dignity, and honor

And all my, oh, so much love taking AIM

Taking AIM to love you

Me and the world and all around

Taking AIM to AIM at our dearest dreams

For finding them and finally be found

HC_B - 01/10/15

[12:48 AM]