Amazing Grace

Amazing Grace

From time to time I wonder who

Could be the one who'd stay

Instead of passing all by

Refusing to go away

It seems no single soul

Has a reason or two to remain

What the heck this is all about then

There is no proper explanation, no pain

What are people really up to nowadays

What do I have or have not they fear

What am I supposed to think of it

What resolution about it is near

So, if I would be a serial killer

No one but I'd ever understand

If I'd be an angel of forgiveness

I'd cut my own live and hand

Oh, right, what I say is much

What I don't be even more

My humor isn't worthy

What is it to adore?

I'm curious for once, who

The hell could it be?

Once and again

Besides me?

There has to be someone in this world

Smart and modest, and forsaken

Fancied, honest and such hit

With some balls awaken

Forget the money, forget the sex

Forget the power that sustains

Forget the Joy of Happiness

What for a sake remains?

So, I wonder who could that be

The one connection that counts

The precious bond to mystery

The grazing of all grounds

The stronghold of my being

The peaceful hotspur of my soul

The finally enduring commitment

The irrevocably standing parole

Partly, I doubt that there still is

Partly, I forbid myself to still believe

Partly, I can't help myself to hope for it

Partly, I guess, to be honest, I just grief

But, if you're out there or in there yet

Somewhere beaten up to the ground

I wish you strength and direction

To beat the lost and be found

HC_Thiesgen

Fri, Dec 8, 2017

3:45 PM/CET

Manus Manum Lavat

Manus Manum Lavat

You better let the past go

Give the chance a tomorrow

The face you see now doesn't fit

You deserve more than it, no sorrow

I know you hope, and bet, and trust

The things you know, you "have"

There is much more to fill in

To better on your behalf

I can see it in her eyes

What you wouldn't at all

There isn't what you need

It's not to last, the final call

I can't reach you, and, I won't

Cling to your coat-tails anymore

I'm here to be conquered over again

Although not as easily as that time afore

I am as rich as you are, "manus manum lavat"

I'm just having something different at my disposal 

I can wait, I have the fortune smiling upon me, to gain

A considerable, concrete and not non-structural proposal

Here you are, here you go, spinning around in your catch-22

Though, I don't blame you, take your time, nevertheless be aware

Time goes by so quickly, and, it never comes back anymore, in any sort

Choose wisely, choose yourself, choose unit, but beware of whom you care

I'll be here, no matter what, or why

I'll endure every drought, any thought

I'll live my life straight forward, any speed

Aim for what I want and not for what I ought

It has taken a long time to get me where I am

It will take some another to get me where I will 

I'm peaceful, I'm ready, and I'm pretty adorable

Maybe you will forget, but remember me, still

I am your treasure, I am your fountain

Discover me, druther start right away

"You better be safe than sorry", plus

As likely as not, eventually I stay

HC_Thiesgen

Wed Nov 8th 2017

20:25 hrs. ( MET )

Virtuously Faithful

Virtuously Faithful

There's a difference between interest and curiosity

There's no meaning in deny it, no meaning at all

There's some help in splitting oneself up into

But, just healing in following the final call

There is a remedy in allowing anger

There's a feeling about it like glue

To connect sky and earth again

Figure something like a clue

People are ruthless, all of them

Fortunate to accept that, who delves

There is no exception to the famous rule

"Heaven helps those who help themselves!"

Oh, words can so be so powerfully useless

Then again, usefully powerless as well

One may wonder where this goes

Straight out or into some hell

Silence is a good choice

Silence gives it all

Silence loves

Your call

All in all some cryptic, that's right

So is life, so are you. - So am I

The less I have, the better

The less of you, I'll fly

Less of you is the less of me

Less of me makes me fit

Less I wonder to get

Less I'm up to quit

You can't give me anything

That I won't give to you

You're out and I'm in

I'll see me through

HC_Thiesgen

Sat Nov 4th 2017

02:30 hrs. [MET]

Bloody Kill-Joy

Bloody Kill-Joy

I have never been independent

But, I've always been kind of alone

All I want is for me to make it up for it

All I want is to home straightway to home

I've lost everything to gain a little bit of myself

I've been lost 'n' found, and, lost 'n' found, for ever

I've been searching for connection, with no connection

I've been honest, but not fair, and, intelligent, but not clever

I'm sorry my child within that I couldn't give you what you needed

I'm sorry that I gave you hope just to disappoint you right away

Trusting people, time and myself with the love I never knew

Having all ever plans defeated in just defend and betray

I'm deeply sorry for beating you up in my despair

I'm awfully sorry that you never had a chance

I'm dreadfully sorry that I hurt your love

I've been a sorry-assed soul to glance

It was all too vaguely perceptible to me

What all your sweetness have been through

You've chosen your way yet over my dead body

Fair enough. I can't blame you. God bless you, too.

I miss you though. I miss your loyalty and innocence

Your happiness, and your way to see all the best in me

Guess, I've been green ware, lemon, from the beginning

Gorgeously shilling in an awesome wrapping here to see

I've failed you. I've failed a lot. Mainly, I've failed myself

I've failed even to fail as a last consequence, to the end

I have nothing to lose, more than ever, all by my own

It's so much shame, so much blame, a lot to repent

You, the child of my own, please, be free and fine

You deserve to get better, and make your day

You used to be my only sunshine, de jure

Your happiness only a heartbeat away

I've messed it up, I've killed

I've panicked in excess

I've been a disaster

Right. I confess.

H.C. Thiesgen

Tue 20 Sept 2017

01:33 AM ( MET + )