Starless Sky Star

Starless Sky Star

I wonder what had been of me

When I had had some more love

Would I still stumble and crumble?

Or being hitting such goal upper above

What if there had been that unconditional

That homely and safeness assuring kind of thing

Of mom and dad, and who whatsoever, again and again

A daily bell of freedom to wake up to, to sleep, and to ring

What if there had been and still were, some friends to call and see

When things get or are cramped, appalling, or even wonderful great

What if I could deal more gently with myself and even love me too

Rather than being unsoundly, contradicting myself or even hate

Could I be better with a little help of who knows, maybe me

Could I be in and up front with someone backing me up

Giving me that and such inexorable encouragement

Raising my morale and strengthening my pluck

I have a little bit of all of this, I know

And, I am grateful, not to forget

But if a little is not enough

And, failure what I get?

I’m such a sensitive

If you like indigent, so?

I may not be the only one

With my own potential to go

I am still holding on my dreams

Or try to find them in the first place

I have my right and justification to exist

To buoy up and uphold my dignity and grace

Far behind or even near or here is what I’m longing for

I can sense it inside of me some of the time, ever and anon

I will get there still in this life, if I take my chances so far

I’m sure I will get there to be there and stay there soon

I thought I had lost all believes and confidences

In the wonders, mystiques and “Gee’s!” of life

But, I guess, there are still surprises to get

As long as I can breathe, I am all alive

Nevertheless, I pray, dear “You”

Something I usually don’t do

Please, love me even more

And, let me love you too

‘Cause without you I’m nothing at all

No matter how hard I want to try

No matter what gain so far

Or what time goes by

H.C. Thiesgen

Sunday 28^th May, 2017

13:11 hrs. (MET +)