I AM GO_o_D

I AM GO_o_D

My mother is a hypocrite

And, what does that makes me?

Am I what I think, not think, avoid

How am I actually supposed to be free?

My father is dead, so long ago under the ground

Does that makes me dead partly or even more alive?

What am I supposed to hold on like this, like it all alone?

How am I able to prosper, to magnify, to grow, or to strive?

My son is a copy of me, long ago, some time ago, some now

Growing as I grow, denying as I deny, separating, loving

Marching through the waters flowing, discovering

With slow-motion pauses, in which shoving

My me is some hypocrite, some dead

Some copy, discovering, shoving

In slow motion, but pauses

Reposing trust in loving

I’ve got the gift, why?

Did I lose it again? How?

What am I to change again?

What am I designated to do now? 

I am good. Yes. - But, am I good enough?

I am “God”. Yes. - But, am I “God” enough?

I get  lost in thoughts sometimes and in time

That’s when it burdens and roses gets rough

People get unlikely then, ignore, make fun

Lack of awareness, nor politeness at all

Maybe it’s the whole point, anyway

Maybe that is actually my call?

I wish to be transmitting again

Not trapped in this body or mind

Need to be connecting and trusting

Fuzzy, no. Fair. - Kinky, no way. Kind.

“God”, who cares though, what is up?

What is alive in me nevertheless?

When hardness strikes me?

When energies distress?

Is it me lacking?

Is it me not at all?

Is it all or nothing?

Is it the wall to fall?

I am the open space captured in a cloudy mood

The light on-again-off-again friend with the dark

I am the body of innocence lacking the right food

I am the fire of life sparking off nevertheless spark

Here I am, here I do

Here I give, or here I don’t

Hello, never mind, no bother

Unless, not together, we won’t

Good or bad, not really matter

Skip the judging, skip the “O”

Just be what you want to be

Or just figure it out, or so

Leastways, don’t mar your own plans

Leastways, do not break anybody’s peace

Leastways, don’t upset any one’s motivation

Not mine, not yours, be some pleasant breeze

Leastways, harbor your old ship and honor it

Contingently not going “Sail ahoy-ing’ again

Leastways, prepare whatever there is to be

Leastways, be your own and only man

Leastways, consider the greatness

Leastways, consider it all to be

Leastways, consider love

Leastways, be it, free

HC_Thiesgen

July 12th, 2019

4:56 PM (CET)